Experience is not what happens to a man. It is what a man does with what happens to him. ~Aldous Leonard Huxley,Texts and Pretexts, 1932
and
"You can't really understand another person's experience until you've walked a mile in their shoes.”
for this entry its all about sadness and disappointment......
(this entry does not related to the "life must go on" entry...)
1) I've meet this guy for about 2 and 1/2 years already...we became friends in unexpected ways...and never in my life i meet this such a wonderful man who could make my world even better than before....in other words, he's the kind of friends that everyone would die for....
god bless him with a kind,caring,and loving heart..he's the kind of person that places other before him....
and thank god i meet and be friends with this person
but unfortunately he's curse with sensitivity and temper....
even the smallest thing could be an issue for him..he could even hold grudge on you for years until his heart content......sometimes even though he knew he's the one to be blame but he would not say "sorry" as he's ego clouded his judgement....
but hey...he's still my friend..
here's the part when everything falls apart
2) lets just say me and my friend were in this mess and we were struggling to get our self out of it.....
we were questions like criminals and GOD...it SUCKS!!!!
anyways...its my turn to be "interview"....unfortunately.... I've said something that i wasn't supposed to say.... its not that im to be blame.....i have this problem where sometimes when i talk i talk in metaphor....
so in this case....he misunderstand the message and went rampage.....
everything fall apart just because of the bad selection of words that i used to defend my self....
trust me....no matter what happen i would never sell my own comrades....
and what im trying to say is that
"you have nothing to do with this...i did it out of my own free will..."
god knows how hurt i'm at that moment....my very own best friend accuse me with something that i would never could had done to him....
i didn't blame him...as he's under the influence of his over dramatic friend....who happens to be there and to make things worse....he actually adding oil to my friends wrath...
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all these time, i never could stay mad at him for so long...as only he could.....
little did he know....i actually slowly forgive him for all the horrible tings that he said and did to me....
but everything is pointless as i recently found out that he wrote something bad about me...
it breaks my hearts to know that the man that i used to called my Best Friend wrote something like that....
well as i just mention before....
everything is pointless....
the things that i do to fix our friendship is pointless if you are still holding that silly grudge of yours....
if by any chance you are reading this....i would like you to know that part of me still think that you are still my best friends and nothing would never change that.....although we may go our separate ways.....i never regrets having you as my friend...and im sorry for everything that i have done....intentionally or not.... and also im sorry if you feel that im burdening you for the past few years....
and there's it....part of the story of my life....not a life that i would choose but i believe everything happens for a reasons.....and who knows maybe....one door closes....another one opens.....
